Monday, November 16, 2009

"Shifting gears"

After some bumpy moments due to the sudden shift in parenting/relationship dynamic caused by my unexpectedly bad morning sickness, we've finally found a happy place, I think.

Many tears were shed (on my part, of course) over the feelings helplessness and being a burden on Donnie who already has his plate overflowing with commitments (college anyone?).

"We're used to riding down the middle of the road, nice and smooth, but now we need to shift gears. In the past, you've been the backbone of the family, Jess, and now I have to step up and shift things around and be here for you and Quinlon."

Seriously, what a fucking man!

It was rough because it was unexpected and the poor guy is already scheduled to the nines. Now he is studying at home, instead of on campus and even went so far as to go fet me ground beef so I could eat non crap filled hamburgers instead of McDonald's everyday.

Did I mention that there is still 9 inches of ice and snow out and the high today was like 20? Yeah, the combo of hormones and fear of the many smells of China and the cold has turned me into a veritable hermit.

It's not forever. I swear we repeat this to each other constantly, but for now we are surviving and when it does pass, it can "shift" back into Drive and we can go back to our normal balance.

And drama/stress aside, I think I got bigger which is funny since I lost another pound or two. So while my ass is smaller, the baby pooch is slightly bigger, at least I think so... What do you think??


Iiri said...

I don't need to tell you this, you know it, but he is such a great man!

(I do think you got a little bigger too!)

Sarah R said...

Wow, I didn't even know you guys had snow right now. Donnie is fucking awesome. :)

I do see a definite change! You have such a cute little butt. :)

Queen Bee said...

Donnie. he is a good man. :) it's good to hear that you have found a happy place. i hope your nausea starts to do the same!

i see more of a little bump peeking out there!

Hollie said...

So great to hear DH is stepping up and switching gears. You still look super tiny to me.

Beautiful Mess said...

Good for you two! We sometimes have to step up when our partner is down. I hope you start feeling better soon. Emotionally and physically.

Kate said...

yup, definetly bigger! :) although i must say, i wish i was as tiny as you this time around... ah well!
hang in there, & thank goodness for awesome husbands! life will find a new normal & carry on again, hopefully sooner rather than later!

Shannon said...

I've really been enjoying your posts everyday. Sorry you've been feeling like crap. It's so easy to say that it will get better when you're heaving, but hopefully it will sooner rather than later for you.

Looking good, I do see a difference in the pictures.

Mari said...

you do look like a teensy bit more preggers! Love the tattoo and congratulations on the little bundle of joy =)

morning sickness must stink... but in the end you'll have that little baby to make up for it =)

rocket.queen. said...

I was hoping I wasn't just imagining the biggerness. It's only slight, but then again, Panda is only the size of a grape, so I don't expect much LOL.

Speaking of tattoos, Mari, I think I am most pissed that now the finishing touches on my sleeve must be put off for like a freaking year! ROFL.