Sunday, April 6, 2008


Being a new mom is so scary.

Quinn has a low grade temperature of about 99.3 at the highest. He was super clingy all night last night and wanted to eat every 30 minutes or so.

Needless to say, I did not get much sleep and when I did it was after he had dozed off on the boob and I got so stiff in one position on my side cradling him.

He's still running around 99 degrees and I'm a complete mess, checking his temp every 10 minutes and holding my breath waiting on the little beep. I'm sure he's fine. I even went so far as to call my ever-so-sweet midwife in tears asking if he was ok or if I should panic (which is where my state of mind was headed).

Poor Donnie is at his wits end trying to keep me together and every evening I do my damnedest to fall to pieces and bawl my eyes out.

I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.

Deep breath and dive right back in. I've got diaper laundry to do while he is still sleeping in his carseat from dropping Daddy off at work earlier.


jenn said...

First off- congratulations- he is beautiful.
Secondly- he will be fine & so will you- don't expect to be perfect- if you can get into a routine by 2 months you are doing great! I have always heard that the first 2-3 weeks you shouldn't expect anything to be easy- but just remember that this too will pass. it will get easier day by day- even if it's slow & you can't see it at first. And that is why doctors have 24 hour lines- for new moms like you to use!

You can do this!

Nicole - Raising Animals said...

Have you had him checked for jaundice? Diesel had it mildly and Lola had it decently bad (she needed the lights to help break it up.) Sometimes that can cause a little bit of a fever.
I wouldn't freak out, but I would call your pedi. It would involve a blood test but since jaundice can cause brain issues in the long run, it's worth it to find out what's wrong.
I'm SURE he's fine! You're a GOOD MOM!